A letter.

Dear maa,

My best friend says that you have never left me. You are here in front of us. You get happy with me, and cry with me. My brain never allows me to believe her. But since I trust her, I am writing this, in a hope that you will read it.

How are you mother? It has been four years now. Four years of craving, crying and missing. I miss you mumma. I miss you alot. Nothing can take away that pain. Nothing can stop that craving for you. 

Initially it was very difficult. It was difficult to stop the tears from finding it’s way out of the eyes. It was difficult to look at paa, because his eyes made me cry. It was difficult to accept that you have left. And that I can never touch you again and never listen to your voice. It is hard to realise that the person whom you need the most is gone. No one can take your place mom. I love you alot.

Don’t worry mumma. I know dad misses you alot. And he cries in solitude. But he is being very strong. He is playing the roles, yours and his, both very well. I promise you that I will take care of him. Your son misses you too. He never shows it, but I know how much he needs you.

And for me, you don’t have to worry at all. Dad takes care of me. And now I have the angel you sent for me as my best friend. She is looking after me. She says you are in a better place. And I am sure you are.

We all are coping, managing and living, mumma. I just want you to bless us all.

Trying to become like you.

Your

Shadow.

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43 Replies to “A letter.”

  1. I am speechless.Since this kid in front of me suddenly gets so sensible,I am always surprised .You are the most strongest person I ever came across.The most beautiful soul that was ever created.
    Your mother is very very proud of you.And so am I.
    Dear aunty,
    YESS I do convey your msgs to her and being the good child that she is, she listens to me and inturn you.She is taking care of everybody and I’ll take care of her.I am never leaving her hand.

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  2. such a beautiful letter sandali….i too lost my mom 3 yrs back and the shock was so severe that my solitude gave birth to my first book”Sushmaanjali” where sushma is the name of my mom .She is guiding force and the more my destiny changes ,the more i believe in her.I can feel her everywhere.B strong dear

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  3. Yes it has been four years and I have seen you grow since then, it was so hard and yet you denied to show it and feel yourself weaker. You are really a strong person, very strong. You know your mother is really very proud of you. I too miss her a lot and I do know she is around us and knows each and everything. Trust me she is there when you are sad , when you are happy, when you succeed in each small thing, when you achieve something, each and every time she is there.
    Love you bro and always will!
    😘😘😘😘😘😘

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    1. That belief is the only thing I have that keeps me going. Only you are that one person that is the source of all the things needed to live; hope, dreams and peace. I will not say thankyou. Rather I would thank my mother for sending you.😘😘❀

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  4. Hey Sandali. I still remember the day I came to know about your mother. We all were in school then. Back then, I couldn’t even find the words to assuage your grief and find the courage to talk to you. Maybe I knew it somewhere that any words of mine would be futile and could never even compare to your loss. Ever since then, whenever I saw your pictures on FB, I saw you smiling the way you always would! And I can’t begin to tell you how happy and relieved it made me that you were holding yourself up well and were still living your life. Today, reading your letter just reaffirmed my belief that you’re one of the strongest people on earth.I know that life would never be the same without her. My own mother was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer in 2015. With god’s grace, she is perfectly cured and well now, but the thought of what could’ve happened makes me shudder even today. It really makes me so proud of you that you are taking care of yourself and your family as well.Wherever she is now, she’ll be happy if you are happy as well. So always keep smiling that pretty smile of yours. Love you and take care!

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    1. Heyy Urvashi, I can’t explain how heart warming and soothing this comment is… I still remember that day, after my mother’s death, when I had to face you all; you know with all eyes filled with sympathy… Back then, it was easy for me to get all scattered and messed up. But my mother would have not liked it… Right?
      And I am happy to hear that your mother is all good now… Just enjoy with her… You are really very lucky… Love her. Adore her… It is even worth if you just sit and look at her… Spend time with her… Just do what you can do to make her feel special… Because there is no wonder and love like mother… Cherish these moments and love her to moon and back… And never, never think about what it would be like without her… Stay blessed dear😘😘😘😍😍😍

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